Inner Energy- part 2

What is energy?

Energy is an indirectly observed quantity which comes in many forms. It is kinetic + potential.
Thermal + chemical.
Electric + radiant.
Nuclear + magnetic.
Sound + mechanical.
Elastic + luminous.
Mass (E=MC2)

Energy is subject to the law of conservation of energy. According to this law, energy cannot be created or destroyed. It can only be transformed. Energy can also be spiritual + everlasting. We all come from stardust.

How do we connect to this energy?

I have began to mediate daily. Some days come easy and some days come hard. Sometimes I just fall asleep. Sometimes I feel the presence of something outside of myself + my focus is lost.  But when the energy does flow, it flows + burns white hot and I feel I know something about the true nature of energy.  I feel bright + full of white light.

Objects, people, places around me have a soft, gentle, murky almost magical luster after mediation. I feel the energy of something more than who I am + it feels positive + good. I feel vibrations of a higher love + the radiance of the universe. This is where the body + mind unify. This is where psychic energy unfolds. The is is where I connect with the universal life force. The bright, white life force that runs within, between + through all things.

Mediation is one way. But there are many others.
Reiki + kundalini.
Spiritualism + parapsychology.
Qi + shiatsu.
Dowsing + channeling.
Shamanism + wicca.
Using tarot cards + crystals.

I know that this greater esoteric spiritual energy isn't an image or idea or intellectual concept to be understood, consumed + digested back. Rather it is a mirror into cosmic energy and our inner self.  There are no short cuts to understanding, experiencing, feeling + living in the bright, white life force. While in mediation we connect to the abundant energy of the cosmos . We travel from body to mind to through our heart into the 6th sense and beyond. The first immediate goal of mediation for me is to slow down + concentrate my energy in order to renew, regenerate + meet my most intimate, true, higher self.

How to get ready to mediate
(or some random things that resonate with me)
just do it. let go. don't think of it as mediation just let go.

Sit in an posture. It must be comfortable. Mediate on the floor, in a chair, in a bed. Cross your legs + clasp your fingers. Close your eyes. Eyes are doors to the mind. Real seeing doesn't happen with the eyes along. The mind is a jumble of thoughts, ideas, questions. The Goal is to transcend the mind.

The breath is a way to transcend the mind. Don't be conscious of breathing. Just breathe. In, out. Normal + natural. In, out. In, out. In, out. One, two, three, four...

Focus on your body awareness. Or awareness of the body. Let the body + your chakras fill with energy. Bright, light white energy. Bright, white, warming light. Bright, white, protective light.

Play with the energy. Play with the bright, white all encompassing life-force. Feel how it feels. It hums, radiates, warms. It is calming + charged with electricity at the same time.

Expand your aura. Bright, white radiating energy. Bright, white radiating, circulating, pulsating energy. This is the realization of yourself in relation to something much more than who you are.

Breath in and smile. Smile inside. Bring up gratitude. Be thankful for the things you have in your life. Be thankful for the energy life force. Smile into your eyes. Smile past your eyes. Smile into your jaw. Smile into your skull. Smile into your shoulders. Smile + move. Twist your back. Move before you drop into mediation. Feel your heart + your blood circulating through out your body carrying the bright, white light through your body. Through your stomach, intestines, down your legs + into your toes. Breath into your vertebrates. Smile with your mouth, your eyes, your heart to all of your body. Twist + turn. Feel your body.  Feel the bright, white leave your body through the bottom of your feet + flow up your aura into your crown chakra.

Smile into your crown chakra. Let the bright, white light flow down through your chakras from the crown chakra into your 3rd eye, through your throat into your heart past your solar plexus through the sacral into your base chakra. The white light flows back your body. Scan your body. Feel what it feels. Aches, pains, emotions. Remove the toxicity- back pain, headaches, trouble at work, issues with parents, etc. Scoop out bad energy + dump it away from your body. Scoop once, twice, tree times, whatever feels right. Physical actions help solidify release. Cut it out like a knife. Toss it out + imagine it falling away to the ground, through the pavement into the earth all the way to the molten lava center of the inner earth. It then returns to you as white, bright, life force energy. Bright, white light purifies.

Breathe. In, out. In, out. Feel your energy centers open. Feel your body recharged + relaxed. Feel connected to your inner energy + grounded.

Feel the balance.
Ying + yang.
Breathe. In, out....
One, two, three...
Mother, father, child.
Light, dark, shades of grey.....energy flows through it all.

Thoughts are energy. Energy can neither be created or destroyed. Bridge the gap between imagination + reality. Feel the cosmic energy of creation. We all came from the cosmic residue of stardust. We live + love. Work + play. Build + destroy. Reconstruct. Know that you are born but you never really die.

What is to give light must endure the burning. In this whole creation we are just small specks but yet we share a bond with everything. We are the space between thoughts + words.

Shine on....

into the wild unknown with some strength

To me, wholeness is the key to aliveness. It is more than just physical vitality, it is radiance, coming from being at one with yourself and flows through you and radiates from you.
-Richard Moss, How Shall I Live

In the last several months I have began to regularly interact with tarot cards. I have been using an amazing, intuitive, whimsical, very natural deck called The Wild Unknown Tarot.

I did a daily spread last week. One of the cards drawn was Strength.

From the Wild Unknown Handbook-
Strength
Mastery of Emotions
Its common to think of this card as the roaring, devouring side of the lion. But look again...the "strength" this card suggests is a much deeper force that's found within. The lion represents our most patient, composed self. He's a master of focus, compassion and self control. When this card comes up you're in need of harnessing this power for yourself. All the courage you need can be found in the muscle known as the heart. 

Okay- another reference to the heart chakra. Hear that loud and clear. Mediated to open up my heart chakra. Ordered a book for further reading. Received a rose in mediation from a spirit guide. Smelt roses while mediating. But the universe wants more!

So I left the card face up on top of the stack on the coffee table and went about my week. I felt very connected with the card but was unsure why at the moment. I felt like there was more than I could see and feel at the moment.

That week I also had a tarot reading while out to dinner. This is the first reading by another that I have had in some time. I felt very disconnected from the reading even while the cards revealed in the reading resonated. I felt like cards used where very limiting and the interpret restrictive and flat. I had a nagging sensation the cards where trying to talk to me but couldn't find it in the reading I had gotten.

But as the week went on, I daily looked at the Strength card face up- from quick glances, to quick meditative moments. The card even caught the interest of my husband- who I found looking through the cards and commenting on their beauty! I don't ever leave cards out like this but didn't want to put it away.

So I decided to do my own larger reading. I choose the favorite reading the Whole Person Spread, aka the Celtic Cross Spread, instead of the usual 3 card reading. But first I decided to take a look at my growth card for the current year- which I haven't done in several years. Low and behold it was the the Strength Card. Oh you tricky, slutty universe!

From The Tarot Handbook: Practical Applications of Ancient Visual Symbols
Strength as  Growth Symbol
During your Strength year, you may find yourself taming and reigning old beasts within. (The year started out with doubt. Hello and good-bye my old friend!) It is a year of renewed passion for all things in life, including the physical. You recapture and regain that sense of wonder and awe about life, and feel that you have overcome old fears tied with the past. It is a year where the creative arts or performing arts maybe of interest to you. 
Your Strength year is a year where you tap unlimited resources of strength within your own nature. (Roar!) It is a year where you experience being even more of who you are. 

Some other repetitive, challenging and delightfully messages from the universe. 
A time to reveal rather than conceal.
Start of journey to authentic self. 
Self-empowerment. 
Time for action, action, action baby!
See self as a wildcat! Double roar!!
Embrace speed, grace and abilities Core competencies!
Don't be afraid to to begin. Just do it!
Use the 4 elements. Earth, air, water, fire baby!
Lose the secrets. Time to let lose!
Insightful and psychic. 
A gentle, tranquil woman but can be aggressive and defensive when pushed. Don't see yourself as the victim! Express feelings honestly and responsibility. 
Strong will and triumph can by yours. Stay calm and focus the mind. 
Expansion, inspiration, growth all around. The universe is abundant!
Strength, stamina, confidence. Keep on keeping on!
Free yourself of addiction, negativity and bad people/situations. 
Maintain humor and don't be thrown off balance. 
Drawn to creative people going forward. Trust in it!
Ready to eliminate negative thinking. Don't fear the sorrow of the past- transcend it!
Be objective and realistic of heart. But also be open to the magic and mystery of the universe. 

Time for some affirmations. 
I am believe in the abundance of the universe. I am whole, happy, healthy and harmonious. I am positive, productive and passionate. I enjoy expressing my energy, vitality and enthusiasm in all that I experience. I am an individual of character and strength. I have unlimited creative resources from which to tap and express. Time to ground myself in my own strength and then I will shine. Into the wild unknown I go with some strength. 

Shine on...

energy- part 1. Lend a hand

Place your hands with fingertips curving but not touching.

All matter is frozen light.
-David Bohm

We are both spirit and matter. The bright white light. Life-force energy.

Every person has a rainbow-like energy field around them called an aura. The aura is linked to the body by personal energy centers called chakras. The word chakra originated in Sanskrit  and means "wheel of light". The chakra spins like a wheel or vortex and focuses the the light of the aura towards and around the body. Auras and chakras are our "energy body".

Below is a great aura exercise. Loosened me up and is an awesome glimpse into the life-force light energy that not only surrounds us but is part of us. I use the word energy a lot as a way to describe the abstract but very real forces, hunches, gut feelings, vibrations, physical unseen forces I feel around. I can feel things I cannot see and cannot touch.

Aura Exercise

What is needed
-A darkened room
-A darkened background
-Hands :)

What to do
-Sit in a slightly darkened room.
-Rub your hands together vigorously.
-Against a darkened background, stretch your arms out in front of you with your fingertips curving toward each other but not touching.
-Look towards a point  beyond your fingertips but don't stare. Keep your gaze soft and relax.
-What do you see?

Hints-

If the exercise causes eyestrain, rub your hands together again and put the palms gently over your eyes for a few minutes. This directs healing life-force energy from your hands to your eyes. 

Take a minute to mediate and/or ground yourself. 

The book I got the exercise from said most people will see very fine lines of light or colorless luminous streams moving from or between the fingers.

I have seen hazy, whitish, murky light. This light is neither white nor as dark as a grey. I have also seen flashes of yellow and orange which then settles to purple. Flash isn't really an accurate description but it was quick, successive colors. Not bright and bold but soft and muted. Hazy, foggy, murky.

This is what I saw- then there is what I felt. Intense awareness of my hands. Felt the energy on and in my palms. My hands where charged, rotating energy fields. Warm and tingly. Felt very centered, grounded. I felt touched by the bright, white light.

Did some more reading on hand auras and found that they are linked to the heart chakra. Ironically I had already decided to work to open my heart chakra. I felt much more open after the first time I did the  aura exercise for the night and into the next day.

What is life-force energy? It is universal and belongs to us all. It is personal and belongs only to me. It can't be seen always but is real. The more directly aware I become of this aspect of myself the more sensitive I become to the energy. The open I am to seeing with not only my eyes but my feelings, heart and the energy that surrounds us all, the more I will be able to see.

I think when people purse knowledge related to esoteric, spiritual, even religious matters they are seeking to understand energy. What is it? How does it relate to me? How does it connect me to the world around me and beyond me.

Energy can neither be created or destroyed. Real seeing doesn't take place in the eye alone.

Here is to inner energy coming out....

eye read

"To think new thoughts you must break the bones in your head." -Sartre

We are both spirit + matter.

Energy repeats itself.

As above, so below.
As within, so without.

Inward then outward.

"Every thought of years is a real thing-a force." -Prentice Mulford

"The vibrations of mental forces are the finest + consequently the most powerful in existence."
-Charles Haanel

There is no such thing as a free lunch in this universe. You get out of life what you put into it.

Fusion is when particles combine.
Fission is when they tear apart.

You are it
it is you.

The one is all
all is one.

Random bit of information float through my head. I read, watch videos, have deep conversations and observe the world around me in relation to spiritual and esoterically related matters in a much larger way than ever before. I record in a black covered notebook things that resonate.

I have felt jolts of energy as I hear people speak words. I have gotten paper cuts wrestling with books of knowledge. I have had late night conversations heading home on the subway to awake in the middle of the night after dreaming of the multi-dimenonsal level of consciousness discussed to see a shadow figure floating at the end of my bed ascend up a brightly lit staircase.

Communication has been made. It is fleeing and fitting. It has been sought and not. It is very real and incomprehensible in the same. It is mystical and magical yet also science and matter.

The heart is a place to start. Heart. Art. Start. I mediated to open my heart chakra earlier today and felt the bright, pink light of love. Light is the source of creation and the consciousness our existence. I  visualized a rose and literally smelt roses. Essence moves through everything. Live in the heart not in the physical world. Go within. You are not your thoughts but the awareness of your thoughts.

Watched Spirit Science after I mediated. Saw some pointers on- How to be a "light being.
One be compassionate to all people and life.
Two be willing to learn new things.
Three be responsible for oneself.

Check one, two, three... I see the trinity. Today I also learned a little(okay a lot) more about sacred geometry than I already knew. For every two extremes there is a middle.
male, female, child
mind, body, spirit
up, down, middle
black, white, grey
myside of the story, their side of the story, the truth
111, 333, 666

One is unity. It is all encompassing and connected to all things. It is the source field. Then there is the source field of the source field also known as duality or the number two. Duality is male and female. Yin and yang. Structure and randomness. It is the balance of two poles, two opposites and somewhere between either/or. Somewhere between either/or brings us to number three, the trinity. See above for examples of the triangular trinity. After three comes the four elements.
earth, air, water, fire
solid, liquid, gas, plasma
winter, spring, summer, autumn
north, east, south, west
food, oxygen, water, prana

Prana is life. Life is light and love. Inward and outward. Breath in and out. One breath at a time live in your heart.

there is no such thing as a free lunch

there is no free lunch in the universe
you get out of life what you put into it.

This video below the first in a series called "A Course in Knowledge + Being" presented by Laura Knight Jadczyck. This course in knowledge + being came to me from the universe at a time when I was meant to see it. I have embarked on a journey of commitment for 101 days in my pursuit of esoteric matters. I have been an interested dabbler in esoteric matters for many years and have had many unexplainable, mystic, magical and frightening experiences. It is time to get serious about things and bring only dedication, respect and perseverance to the pursuit of being to understand how the universe works and what our role in it is.

To sum things up, the videos are a look at the modern spiritual movement and the information shared within is a straightforward story of Laura Knight's Jadcyck's experiences and knowledge. The course of videos are informative, objective and clearly explained. The viewer is asked not only to question why they seek to communicate with other beings but tells us to be aware of experiences and where you are being lead. The message I got loud and clear was knowledge protects.

I submit myself to understanding the secrets of the universe.

Onward....